The Swing of Things

Can't seem to get into the swing of things at ALLLLLL..not just with this blog but with everything in life..I feel like I'm in a place where I am lost in the haze and can't get out. Even my emotions are all over. My mom came to visit for 2 weeks and just went back home so I've been a little depressed. The mental part of me that always treats change in life like a death in the family as my therapist says...I would rather my mind not let myself feel that way but I swear no matter what I do or meds I take I am still that way....I need to find something to do with myself as well...As tradgic things happen in life around me, I am starting to feel that urgency to get my act together and find a way to make a living outside my family so I can support us all if anything were to happen to my hubs...trying to not think negative but we need to prepare ourselves for the unthinkable in that just in case moment.

I'd love to go back to school but to study what, I have no clue..I just don't know how I can do it with kids, no sitter, and not wanting to take out a loan for the schooling either...GRRRRRR

I love my head shaved but at the same time I miss having hair and feeling more feminine...I ended up getting a wig to see how it looked and I LOVE it..just like how I had my hair just longer..but it's HOT to wear something on my head..

Z has developed into a growing boy who loves football more than ever..and the band..and he even wanted to be a football player for halloween..hahaha


Sasha enjoying the car ride


Yan and Soc cooked us authentic chinese food





shirt- Hellz Bellz