I have neglected this blog..I'm sorry..I am in the strangest funk..even in a cooking funk which is not normal for me..I haven't felt like cooking in a while and have no inspiration to cook..it's wierd.
But I think I am wallowing in my pity..sorry about that but I really have no where else to vent..so all I can say is I feel lost...like I haven't figured out my place in this world or life..I feel this huge need to DO SOMETHING but what I have no clue and is it even possible? Probably not right now with kids...until R goes to school I am limited in what I can get done....
I know there is a lot of things worse than this but yet, I feel a sadness or depression that I am trying to kick..my home situation doesn't help when my other half forgets I am a person too and gives everyone else the cheerful hellos and nice conversations..and leaves me with the i'm-busy-what-do-you-need kind of conversation....that only pushes me to the I'm not psyched feeling..
So yes, I am being silly and yet somehow typing this out makes me feel a little relief..=) now let's see what I can do to get myself out of this damned hole...
