Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Learning 1, 2 and 3

Things I've learned since I moved:

1. How to save money on coffee
I used to spend money on a double shot espresso at Starbucks almost everyday back home because it was in my backyard and I had a few friends who worked there. I'd get free coffee a bunch but I also would buy coffee too. I thought that cycle would never end because they knew just how to make my coffee perfect. Thankful for the move, all the Sbux I tried here cannot replicate my coffee so I haven't bought it while here. If I do buy one, it's maybe once every two-three weeks! What a savings!  I used to always use the bialetti and illy coffee then got addicted to Sbux and couldn't go back. But now I'm back to my illy and realized I was not making it correctly so now it makes the perfect double shot mix for me and I no longer need to buy my coffee elsewhere!! There are good things to moving away from home =) (and for added pleasure, all my favorite ladies have moved on from my spot so even if I stayed in Hawaii it wouldn't have been the same!)

My favorite combo back in my life after a hiatus! 

2. Because of my painful heel and feet, I am forced to NOT run. But I am learning to find other outlets for getting my workouts and training. Friends have advised me of different cross training things I should do but I never did any. Now that I am forced to rest my feet, I am slowly getting the courage to try the things I never tried. I was always afraid to swim because I am weak and didn't want to go to the pool and swim one lap and leave because I was tired. But some advice from a far away acquaintance, who is training for his ironman, got me in the pool for the first time today. I was sick of not being able to run and so I got myself a speedo one piece and goggles and made myself go to the public lap pool. It was a nerve racking experience for me because I don't do well with new things especially going alone into the unknown territory, and I had to force myself to go and ask questions and find out where I am allowed to swim. Surprisingly, it wasn't as scary as I thought, no one cares that I suck at swimming, and no one is watching so I had no reason to be self conscious of being a in swimsuit without a shirt covering me. If anyone knows me, skinny or fat, I have always worn a tshirt in the pool or at the beach because I'm so self conscious but clothing in the pool other than swimsuits is not allowed so I was afraid but it was not as bad as I thought!  First for everything and definitely a first for me being in a speedo and goggles since I was a little kid!!  What a great workout it was and my body is tired in ways I never got from running and DVD workouts so I'm quite happy. I think throwing a few swim laps days in my week is going to be my new happiness. Sad to say I only swam 22 times back and forth in a 25yard lap but gotta start somewhere! I wanted to stop at 10 minutes of swimming but saw the youth swim team kicking ass and it totally pushed me to swim for 30 minutes. I'm humbled by these kids who are amazing swimmers and swam for over an hour! 

Let the foot therapy begin!

Got home in time for the sunset =)

3.  Learned to stop letting people continuously mess with my mental state. I am slowly learning that I am in charge or my life and I need to stop letting everyone else's feelings come first. Yes, I still feel bad and feel like I need to do things for everyone and be there for everyone but if its not good for my own health, makes my anxiety skyrocket so bad I have to throw up, then it isn't helping me and I need to stop and put my mental health first. Its a work in progress that will probably take another 30 years to fully change but any step is a step to recovery =) 

if there's cold shimmering sand in the middle of the canyon, anything is possible!!

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Little Explorers

Today started off with the usual reprimanding of at least one kid before we could even step foot out of the door! But that's when things started to get better. We drove to the canyon and what a surprise!  There was free entry today!
Then a Proud-mama-moment: 4 year old and 7 year old explored a "new to us" trail for two miles and no complaint!  That's a first.
It was scorching hot and from what I hear, not normal weather for February but it was nice, sunny and just perfect for being outdoors. My oldest could probably have gone another mile or two without complaint but I couldn't make the little one go much more especially at high noon in full sun on only jamba for breakfast (for them).What was so nice was that we did it together and had something to share and be proud of the accomplishments. My feet were sore but its really hard to stay off them!  Continuing the quest to stay active with the kids and keep them exploring. 2014 is going by so quickly and I don't want to miss anything.
Photo credit : Z

On a side note, I've never really been much for super crazy workout stuff but ummm I've never wanted a watch so badly. What's wrong with me!! Who wants to spend $400 on a gps watch?  Sounds absolutely nuts and I don't even wear watches except when I run. Craziness. But I def need slmethjng to use once I start swimming and my old garmin isn't made to be in the pool. =(
Any ideas if this Garmin 910xt watch lives up to its price tag??  I feel like my closet has been outnumbered by running clothes and post run gear. What's happening to my wardrobe!!!!

Friday, February 14, 2014

Rest Rest Rest

Forced rest days suck. I realize I need to listen to my body when it tells me there is pain that I need to STOP and heal completely. Its hard for me when I really want to go go go and I can't. My feet have been hurting and aching and hasn't gone away. It's not nearly as bad as it was when I initially hurt them beginning of January but it has a full ache and not sure what to do. All signs point to some muscle / tendon but I think I have to stay off it, find good shoes or sandals to wear daily (instead of slippers) when I'm running errands and stop running completely. Its hard when I want to run and train to run faster and longer. I feel like I'm stepping backwards way too many steps and it will take so much longer to get back to where I had been. I guess me being a new runner means more injuries in the beginning.

For those who don't know me, I've never been athletic. I could never run even a quarter mile all my life!  I used to always say I wish I could run but I could never. No matter how many times I tried to get started I just couldn't get passed the breathing and lack of endurance. Two years ago, I decided to get fit and healthy because no doctors could figure out why I was so tired, gaining weight, and sooooo bloated that I looked pregnant when I hardly ate.  It was frustrating not knowing how to get better when I know myself and my body. I knew I wasn't normally this chubby and unhealthy, so I  started walking everyday attempting to jog. I started slow and thought getting to two miles walking / jogging was hard work and I maintained that for a year not pushing myself thinking doing three miles was long. Randomly, I signed up for a 8mile race with some friends and I realized I could do the longer distance. As hard as it was for me, it was possible. That was February 2013 at the Great Aloha Run (this was me last year 15 lbs agowith a mystery stomach issue). 
Since then, I started pushing myself to run more than a few minutes before walking a few minutes. And then going for a mile more than before. Soon enough, 5 miles became my short runs and 8 -10 became my long runs. Granted, I still walk a few minutes in between but I started running more of it and walking less. Adding miles. That's when my shins started hurting. Me not listening, I ran through it and it got worse which put me out a few months. Then I got fit for shoes at the running store but they had me run in stability shoes when I don't think I  should have because I seem to excessively supinate. So those shoes were forcing me to supinate even more! But I didn't know any of this. So I was running for months in shoes that were wrong for me. Now I'm here a year later, with feet pain and no idea what it is. No insurance right now so I need to just rest and let it heal on its own and doesn't get worse. How much I'd like to lace up my shoes and run even a few miles!! Everynight I run searches on my pain, I feel like this Video about foot pain sounds a lot like what I am going through. Wished my body would quit failing me and let me get back to what I want to do! My running friend said once it heals, my tendons will be stronger and I will be fine. I hope he's right!! I'm sure my body is weak everywhere and just needs to strengthen. 

Here are where my feet hurt the most: 
Excuse the ugly feet! 

So now I want to find someone to teach me to ride a bike with gears since I have never ridden anyhing other than a beach cruiser and I'm off to find a one piece swimsuit and some goggles. See if I can find a cheap rec center to start swimming to keep me training somehow. I've never been a strong swimmer and so this might be a great sign to start learning to swim better and get stronger in a different way. I wonder if I can even swim 1 lap in a pool! Oh boy. 

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Outside sunshine

Today was warm enough for shorts so we decided to head out to the canyon and get some exploring done. Not much I can do with two little kids but it was nice to take a leisure stroll on a trail and enjoy being outdoors. I really need to make more effort to slowly get the kids going further or faster and find the love for nature that we all tend to forget about these days. It makes me happy when they decide its fun and they are willing to try a new trail this coming weekend. My heart sings just a little when I hear that. Its so much nicer to know that they want to come along rather than me dragging them outside. I don't get to accomplish distance when I bring them along but it gives me time to appreciate the little things and spend time with my kids outside of the house. I hope we never lose these moments because in the end its not about what you buy them that they will remember. It's the memories we've made and the things we've shared that will stay with them forever.  Someday I hope they can look back and say, "I remember mom used to take us hiking, exploring, running and taught us to stretch our muscles and be strong." They may not understand much about it now but I feel like if I show them all the good values now, they will remember them even if they never got interested in it. I have the worst memory of my childhood but the few things I do remember, were thinggs we did together and how much my mom did for us as kids. 


Photo by Z

Z noticed the bright colors in the rocks