Aaron and Ming were right, this is the trial..to test out being away from the kids for more than a few hours and realizing that if it turns out to be not as bad as I thought, it would be the start of more day trips to come.
My homie since I was 18..jacked this pic from his Instagram:
We didn't get to go to Universal before my flight because our passes were black out days but we did get to just hang, eat, and see Venice Beach. Been there, done that, no need to do it again HAHAHAHHAHA! It was like walking through a SUPER SUPER long International Marketplace like back home in Waikiki (RIP). Ming, being from Miami, and I, being from Hawaii, seeing the brown ocean was like, "UHHHHH ya, ok" but the ocean in itself is just calming and relaxing and if I ever lived there, I would totally go to a brown beach on down time just to eat lunch and relax listening to the ocean.
The kids didn't even miss me which made me happy but sad at the same time. They have gotten so used to me working and having grandma play with them that they miss me but they no longer cry or feel sad. Back in Hawaii, the only had me so they weren't used to having me gone. It was like that when we moved here too..just going to a job interview was stressful for me. The guilt I felt for being away was hard. But now they are used to it and know that I am always going to be coming home right away, they are happy kids and I feel less stress and guilt for picking up an extra shift at work. They have grown up so much and I feel like I am continuously growing as a mom too.
The moment I felt the cool air in LA and saw the mountains, I knew that I can't stay in Vegas for too long. Although I most likely will stay for a while just because the kids need the support and I do too. I have a hard time trusting strangers to take care of my kids so they are in the best hands once I start working full-time. I'll keep looking but it will probably be awhile until to find a job somewhere along the west coast..but being in California really made me see how much my goals are there..being on the west coast..Oregon, Cali, Washington...somewhere near the PCT...or just being on the PNW..I have to get there someday in the near future. I belong in the green mountain..not the desert..and if I am not in Hawaii then I'd be happy up there!!! GOALS GOALS GOALS.....going to make things happen.